For just a moment today

It felt like the finest Spring morning!

As I stood there, I was dumbfounded.

I saw the cold dark cloud above

And the chill wind below,

But neither did I feel, neither could I feel.

In reality, it was a lonely Winters day

But I was warm and alive.

For such a sweet moment

I was a little boy with an ice cream,

A boisterous teenager at the fair,

An man floundering, finding his way in love.

For such a sweet moment

It was the strangest of Spring days;

How I long to make all days like this!

For a number of weeks now

I have been living a masquerade.

I tried to stay hidden,

Wrapped in a veil of anonymous pretence,

But now, you surely know me.

People about us however do not,

Nor would they understand;

Only you do.

But today

I nearly reached out,

Nearly took the final risk.

This is a tantalizing joy that I feel today;

It is a joy and excitement

created out of a new feeling;

It has grown,

Begun to develop.

But no longer am I hidden from your view.

You know me by now,

And that makes it all the more exciting!

Today's rare, elated feeling

Has brought me to my knees;

I regret not reaching out to you

when I had the opportunity....

No longer do I wish to stay behind

This failing mystery.

I want to make all days like today;

Want you to feel this happiness,

Want to touch you, explain to you my feelings.

I felt like a bursting balloon

With nowhere to go;

I felt like the brightest of stars

With nowhere to hide;

I felt like the most harmonious melody

With no one close to hear.

I want to inch nearer to you,

Want to get to know you.

You have already made up your mind about me:

You know what you will say should I ask,

But you don't know for sure if I will.

In my position however,

I don't know what your answer will be,

Hence my nervousness.

But my mind is made up also,

And ask I must.

I just have to find the moment.

I beg of you,

Keep this failing mystery between us,

And help me....